I've always felt like a big phony for dedicating so much time to something that might not pay off in the long run. I sit in front of my computer, feeling guilty about pandering to these people in my head instead of dusting my filmy furniture or vacuuming my family room. I go to work every day in pursuit of a paycheck, because I'm well aware that writing may never earn me one (yes, I still feel this way, even being agented), but all I want to do is write while I'm there.
The week before last, I went to Mexico. I wrote on the plane, I wrote in my hotel room, I wrote on the balcony outside with the sound of the ocean in the background. It was writing Nirvana.
Writing on vacation. Quick, someone go tell my agent how dedicated I am! |
The view from our balcony. Poor me, having to look at that while I wrote! |
Wait... Why did I come home? |
The swim-up bar. I recommend the Dirty Monkey. |
The pool... The one place where I couldn't write, due to sun glare on my netbook. And the Dirty Monkeys didn't help, either. |
*THEN* something awesome happened when I got home - our system crashed for 3 days at work, and I literally could not do my job. So, I wrote instead.
Unfortunately, it doesn't happen very often that I'm handed writing time on a silver platter like this. But even with all my doubts and demons and obligations, I'm going to find a way. Because it's what I love, plain and simple. (And also, because the idea for book #4 was born while I was in Mexico. Weee!!!)
For more on this subject, (and for a quick live peek at the view from my hotel room) check out my vlog below. And then tell me - when do you find time to write?
How beautiful! That seriously looks like paradise. I'm glad you had a great time and got a lot of writing done! :)
ReplyDeleteI have the same doubts about my writing (ie: whether I should be using my writing time on other things like, you know, actually having a social life)...but at this point, I've been sacrificing normal "kid-things" for writing for so long (8 years) that I'm just like: mehhh.
I'm actually really bad at finding writing time, mostly because whenever life throws me work, I end up doing work and just work (which is why I write like a snail). But I'm slowly learning how to squeeze in writing time (sometimes at odd hours but whatever) and I think I'm getting better at it...or at least, I hope so. ^_^;
I never cared for "normal kid things" either, and I have a hard time ignoring life, too. When I get a good chunk of time to write, I'm thrilled - but then I'm depressed when it's over because I don't know when another one will come around. Such is the life of a writer, I suppose!
DeleteI think we need to ditch everything for a while and go back to Mexico for a writer's retreat :)
I don't think I have trouble finding time to write, because god knows I have plenty of time on my hands, usually, but I do procrastinate. A lot. I can only write when I have something else I'm supposed to be doing, you know? Like sleeping. So when I do get a day full of nothing, I do pretty much everything except write. >.<
ReplyDeleteAlso: I am so jealous of you and Mexico and the book baby you made together that I cannot contain it.
Wow, what an idyllic place to write! Congrats on coming up with book #4!
ReplyDeleteSo much admiration for your dedication here, because with such views I'm not sure I'd be able to write a single word.
ReplyDeleteLike Chess, I'm a huge procrastinator. I tend to write when I have other things I should be doing. :)
Wow I'm impressed. I write best late at night, but that is so hard to do now. It was easy before (LOL I was a college student....until I graduated); since May I am trying to look for a job and hopefully then I'll have to schedule writing time in. I really like this post a lot, Gina. (new follower. *waves*)
ReplyDelete*Waves back* HI! I love new followers :) Best of luck with your job hunting!
DeleteI write in every spare moment I can. I carry my laptop to the doctor's office every week for my allergy shot. (I have to wait 20 minutes after the shot anyway.) I write on planes and trains, occasionally in the car. And I so totally would have written looking at those beautiful views on your vacation!
ReplyDeleteOh my word, that looks so amazing!!! I would've done the same thing ... write, write, write! :D
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