After Monday's post, and all the wonderful encouragement I received, I was pumped about querying.
Now, I've crashed from my query high. Hard.
I'd forgotten one of my CP's had offered to let her crit group have a go at my query, and I'd said yes. And while they agreed my premise intrigued them and the novel sounded like something they'd like to read, the query itself was torn up, down and sideways (in a very constructive, unoffensive manner, just as an aside).
I panicked instantly, now terrifed that I'd sent out a subpar query this weekend. Add to that the fact that I received my first rejection within 24 hours of hitting send, and you can see why I'm back in Query Hell.
The rejection was brief, stating that while the agent was happy for my support of her clients (I'd mentioned admiring the work of one in particular), she is only taking "few new clients" and must pass.
Is that really supposed to make me feel better? "Few" new clients is not "no" new clients. So she's obviously taking on SOME new projects, just not mine. Another nice way of saying, "It's not me, it's you."
Add to that the absolute craziness that is my job right now, my ongoing failure to have a child, and the fact that the day simply isn't long enough to do everything I need to do, and what you get is me apologizing for not having a very uplifting blog post for y'all today.
Guess I needed to vent. Sorry, all.
But yes, I do plan to muster up the energy from somewhere to make more tweaks to my query. And no, I'm not giving up. Yet.
You tell me, though - how do I know if it really IS me, and not them?