Alright, let's be honest.
How many times has your quest to be a tried and true author made you cry the ugly cry?
This post probably goes hand in hand with my last one about Writerly Fears, because as far as crying goes?
I. Hate. It.
It's something I try to do as little as possible, although being that I'm kind of sensitive, I don't always succeed in that mission. Because put me in front of a movie with innocent people getting bullied? I cry. An episode of Smallville where young Lex Luthor is crying because no one came to his birthday party? Oh, damn straight, I'm crying right along with him. And Extreme Makeover Home Edition? Don't EVEN get me started.
But as far as Writing and The Mission to Be Published goes, there's only one tick mark under "Times I've Ugly Cried."
It was last year, around the time Write On Con was happening. My novel didn't fit the YA genre, and I was forced to let it hang out in the no man's land known as the "Other" forum. There it languished, unnoticed by agents and fellow writers alike, while all the YA entries were getting more traffic than Grand Central Station.
On one day in particular, Twitter blew up like crazy with everyone cheering over their WOC requests, and with each one new tweet, my stomach sank lower and lower until guess what showed up in my inbox?
Yup. A form rejection. Yet another one.
It was the straw that broke my back. I felt hopeless and worthless, and I cried the entire car ride home from work, the whole time I made dinner, and then the whole time I ate, until I fell into bed, exhausted, at 9:30 p.m.
Since then, I've faced rejections on fulls and partials, and of course, numerous query rejections. I've had plenty more moments where I've been certain I'll never succeed in this game, had countless more times where I've questioned my intelligence and my ability to write.
But I've never again cried about it, and to this day, I can't figure out why that was the moment that shattered me.
What about you, peeps? Do you rack up frequent cryer miles over your writing endeavors, or do you take it all in stride?