I hope I'm not the only one who has these moments: the ones where you're re-reading your painstaking work, and find yourself thinking, God, that sentence is so bland! Or, geez, if that was supposed to be funny, holy epic fail.
What I want to know is, how does it happen? Why does the first draft always sound so good in my head, until I read it a second time? After all the years I've been writing, shouldn't it be sort of... effortless?
I'd really like to be immune to sucking. I think I've earned it.
Unfortunately, the only thing worse than being UNhappy with your own writing, is being pretty happy with it, and then having someone tell you it's "almost there" instead of "there."
I had the good fortune to receive a critique of my first ten pages from an agent recently. And while she didn't request more material, she told me she loved the concept and the challenge and that she'd welcome my query once I'd made some revisions. Specifically, she loved my character's voice, but wanted it more consistent, and more of it. Dripping with it, as she put it. I'd actually been afraid this character's voice was a little over the top, and this agent actually wanted it moreso. Color me baffled.
I thought I'd wittled away anything that screamed "I'M BORING!" or "GINA IS AN AMATEUR!", but in reality, I'd only almost done it. And we all know how well almost cuts it. It doesn't.
So, while I know no one's world is going to collapse if my blog posting gets a little spotty over the next couple weeks, I just wanted to put it out there that I"ll be retreating to my revision cave. Feel free to throw me a pity party when I tell you that the cave is a tiny room on the top floor of a split level with no airconditioning :(
My ms is officially a No-Boredom Zone. Wish me luck!